Each Other's Way

I had 4 days off last week (and more 4 free days this week due to New year's holiday). I probably should bought ticket to get home, but no I chose to stay in my flat. Vacation is for you to spend with your loved ones. They can be family, or gadgets, books, hobbies and in my case, they're pillows. lol.

I went out for the first 3 days in the morning. I planned 4 days jog, but only managed to get one. Ah. Sometimes, you don't need planning, you just have to do it spontaneously, right?
The weather patterned predicatably. It's always gloomy in the morning, but the sun may peek once a while. However, by the time it was 2 pm, the rain poured heavily. I better stay at home. So, my schedule is very tight. I have to have breakfast in the morning, somewhere. I need to blog, visit bookstore or banks, then got back before 1. Well, with no tide and no family, I can do it.

Last Sunday, when I was drinking my chamomile tea for breakfast, one of my circle call. We talked a lot. I hardly call her. You know the reason. First, it's hard to connect. We're living in different time arrangement. By the time I was free to call (mostly my jogging time), she's probably busy making a bed, changing the baby's diapers, and preparing breakfast. By the time she was fit to give a call, I probably in the middle of reading something or wandering in mall.

Second, I don't know how to talk to this married circle (there are 3 circles out of 5 which already married). We're talking in different language, I guess. and different pace. She was talking about husband's quarreling when I'm thinking about traffic jam. When I pick cream bruille for afternoon tea, she's busy dealing with her baby's milk. Okay, you got that right?

Even so, it's always nice to talk to circles. I remember when I left hometown for college. It was almost 12 years ago. I picked far away university and they were quite sad. Our tutor even said to them, "Don't cry, it'd make her hard to move on". Aha. Actually, I never even once doubt of my choice. I wanted this and I'm glad I left home. But, from the point view of friendship, leaving your friends is awful. Yeah, I feel a little bit guilt here. A little.

The more time we grow, the wiser we become, the more we realize we won't be able to live this life all set similarly. No. No matter how close you are, you'll face different things. Look at us now. You're marrying someone, has baby, and needs to deal with house chores. Me? I'm living alone far from family, charging my own living style, and spend time traveling across the country. We're different. But, aren't we both happy? We're both happy in our own way.

I'm listening to EXILE's "Each Other's Way" when writing this post. The lyric stabs me right in the heart:

You can go your way 
itsudatte koko ni iru


I’ll always be with you 

mune no naka


sugoshita hi wa 

mada furikaeranai


Kagayakeru tame 

kono mama each other’s way …

I cried listening to this song. I feel like I've come this far because my circles had been praying for my success. I am grateful to know you, girls.