My bank just called to remind me about house certificate's payment. I told her I don't have the money, yet and she rambles about how I should save little by little to pay it, including to expect my Holiday's bonus. Ha ha. I wished I could explain it better that I really have nothing to save. I haven't got any money since January because of the new rules in office. I tried hard not to uncover it to her because I know she wouldn't understand. If I were her, I wouldn't understand either. 

She said, it's already missed from the deadline. I'm sorry, the notification letter I received didn't say anything about deadline. She said she'll ask the developer about it. Ha, such a typical Indonesian blaming behavior. So, what? Even if she asked the developer, it doesn't change the fact that I have no money for that. 

She tried to come with the fact that "the problem lies in you" and I repeated more and more, "Yes, it's me. I don't have money." If she tried to intimidate me with that line, she took the wrong person. I'm the intimidating person. And i will always be. So, it doesn't work for me. 

When somebody to push a blame on you, they expect you to deny it so they can feel more powerful. So they can feel right. But, in this case I stated clear that it's my fault and I'm not shifting blame to anyone to keep the evil circle runs. She lost. She has nothing to offense me.

I think this should be developer job to confront me. But, they won't dare. If they come to me, I will say, "I don't think this is fair for you to push me paying. When I complaint for many things, your responses were slow and your results were dissatisfying. So, I'm just treating you the way you did to me. You are absolutely have no right to make me feel hurt anymore."

We only got what we deserve, right? If I'm being nice to you, it's because you deserve it. I'm not a saint who can be nice to everybody at any moment. I can be mad, or sad, and not being able to show some smile to you. Okay, that's actually how I feel lately to this world *sorry, different topic*