Morning, it's such a nice weather outside. I don't know if it would last for the day, but let's just enjoy it now. It's been raining a lot last week and I've took train home for 3 days lately. Thanks to my super fast time mismanagement's bosses, I had to attend meetings until the sun down. Train is the only transportation that crossed my mind when it comes to going home late. Although, it's not always the most reliable public transportation. There were times when trains couldn't operate because of signal problem, just like last Wednesday. 


I also came home late last night. It was so tiresome that I slept so good and when I woke up this morning, it's already 5. *5 am in the morning....5 am in the morning....* It's not early. In fact, it's a bit late for me. Lucky I already prepare everything to wear last night, so I just took a bath and get ready in 15 minutes. 
The senior sitting next to me on the bus wanted to talk about anime. Her son is currently in addiction to this show. So, she asks me if I could share my anime with her. Well, it's not a big deal, but I need to know her son's preference, right? I couldn't give him "Free!" if he's a Gundam type, right???
So there lost my 15 minutes to sleep and the traffic was not bad. We got to office at 7 and I'm still sleepy. I have some designs to edit and I want to finish it today.  

I think I'd be able to do it fast. I've been occupying myself in work so I lost touch with people around me. It feels great, actually. Being free from listening to office gossips makes me happy. To stay away from people who doesn't care about me is fascinating. It's easy to abandon someone. I feel like distrusting people again. I'm relapsing my old trauma. I get the feeling that it won't health easier like before. 

It's like living in First Class' world, where everybody put masks on their faces pretending to be gold. But, they're talking about you behind your back. It hurts. I thought I won't be sad this much, but I can't lie to myself. I hate the feeling. Somehow, I feel better when listening to Kando Bando's I came I saw I conquered.