The vacation is over! I’ve spent 8 days at home without going out (except for taking out trash). How is that possible, you ask? Well, my fridge is full, as well as my external harddisk. There are tons of drama waiting to be watched and books! Don’t forget about them. I have to catch up my reading challenge. I felt “pressured” to finish them. What a week full of watching drama and sleeping. XD. I never had afternoon’s nap normally, but last week I regularly put effort to sleep at noon. What a leisure.
At some points, I realize that I’m such a homebody type. Or am I depressed?


Wait, lemme check DSM V. It says you can only call it depression if met at least one of these symptoms during same 2-week period.
(1) depressed mood most of the day, nearly every day.
Only when my colleagues too slow to finish our team work
(2) markedly diminished interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities most of the day, nearly every day
I’m very excited to go to office, started my work early when it’s still fresh.
(3) Significant weight loss when not dieting or weight gain, or decrease or increase in appetite nearly every day.
Really wish to lose some weight, though. But, I’m still fat in some area. Lol
(4) A slowing down of thought and a reduction of physical movement (observable by others, not merely subjective feeling of restlessness or being slowed down)
I’m fast and have good endurance when circling the mall, while my companions are already hobbled.
(5) Fatigue or loss of energy nearly every day
Only when reaching the bus (in the morning or afternoon). There must be something with the chair, it hypnotizes me to fall asleep on the way to and from office.
(6) Feeling of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt nearly every day.
Hahaha. Not me, I’m very much narcistic.
(7) Diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness, nearly every day.
I’m the decision maker in group, since everybody else are too slow or afraid to choose.
(8) Recurrent thoughts of death, recurrent suicidal ideation without specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide.
I do think about death or what happened when I’m no longer alive, but never to take my own life. Sometimes just thinking about what if I got accident and none around to find my body. XD

 So, it doesn’t seem like I’m having depression. I’m just lazy. I know. Now that the lazy days are over, I miss the afternoon nap