I'm pretty much sad, but I coated with smile
I'm thinking of crying, but I laugh instead
Ah, I feel like hypocrite right now
Does any other adult must do the same? hiding true feelings and always tries to look composed?
Well, at least that's what I imagine of ideal adult looks like.
Thus, it must be painful to suppress all your pain, ha?
No wonder some keep posting hateful sad statuses on Facebook.

On the other hand, I think we're living in less appreciation community. I feel like we receive so little appreciation in reality. Mom hardly praises her kids when they grow older (on the contrary, they keep boasting their little babies here and there). Boss seldom say thank you for every task done well. Neighbours keep gossiping like everything is wrong, leading never ending demand of social achievement (like "have you graduate?";"do you have job yet?";"when will you get married?"; or "Why not have more kids?").

We're all seek existence, the feeling of being accepted: 
                      having someone listening to our story, 
                                  having people who feel rescued by our hands. 


We just want to be needed, to feel like we belong somewhere. However, sometimes we must throw things in order to fit it. Sometimes you just need to keep cheerful to have people rounding you because we don't like gloomy people. Sometimes you just need to offer help over and over to let them know you're there. Sometimes....ugh it's pitiful and complicated to be human.