Happy Eid-Adha, everyone. May we’re always given enough blessing and —more importantly—feel enough with what we have.


I’m currently home alone, because my parents are arranging the Eid things in the masjid. You know me, I’m the lazy millennial who prevent from socializing too much. I went straight home after the prayer and luckily didn’t meet anyone to chit chat.
If it was 15 years ago, I would never lazying around like this. I was very active in rohis (religious club) since junior high to university days. I barely home and involved in my kinds of activity. I remember, I often played the media girl who made publication for our events. What a hype time.

But, what happen now? I think this is a normal turn for everyone. Other people strangled by their family, I’m tied to my sanctuary. We’ve reach a point where we become too tired to do what we did. 
It’s similar to the fandom life. As we grow older, we barely find time to check new content, uploading stuffs, even making small comments. We used to talk too much, now we’re just silently reading (in our leisure time).

Are we becoming adult? Are adults not allowed to live a fandom life?
I don’t think so. Fandom can be sanctuary for everyone, no matter how old you are. But, you have to admit the more number on our age, the more responsibility we take. Be it the job, family, or any social events. Plus, we become tired. I don’t have stamina to binge watch 2 days in a row. I have to get up for work tomorrow, I don’t want to get sleepy in the office. 
Ironically, at this age I am equipped with more money and tools to be a fangirl. I have fast internet, I have great laptop, I can buy any merchandise or concert ticket if I want to. I can always come to fandom to ease my stress day and I can exit anytime. I’m no longer too attached that I had to be number one in sharing everything or uploading anything. I make peace with myself. Fandom is there to make me happy, not to burden me.